These self-deprecating thoughts bring one’s value of themselves down. Think of it like this, you have an object, the value of that object has been depreciated so much that it has almost no value at all, and who wants an object worth little value and further depreciating value, you would want to get rid of that object. In the same way, Elliott’s thoughts are depreciating his life’s value, to the point where he doesn’t see himself as someone that brings value to the world in any way, or even to himself. His thoughts are convincing him to get rid of himself.
I longed for the innocent child in me to come back, that beautiful boy who hadn’t seen the world yet. Everything was falling apart, but the pills were like the glue keeping my life together, but once that glue was gone, it fell to pieces.
The use of distractions and the neglect of mental state leads to people not being able to cope when adversity strikes.